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For those of us who know our [info]christhetoken and have heard hm exercise his ability to bring on the extreme creative anachronism:

 Last night on CSI, one of the characters called someone "an asshat."

That's right, ladies and gentlemen:  our Token made PRIMETIME!!!!!

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Please, God--let "Dollhouse" be good.

Amen.

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George Bush has just left the building. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UPDATE: Dick Cheney looked exactly like Mr. Potter from "It's a Wonderful Life." Apparently, the weight of all the evil he's taking with him from Washington finally crushed his spine.

Seriously--I cannot wait for the Daily Show's take on that one.

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--to wish all of you a very happy holidays. I am very grateful you are all in my life.

Happy winter holiday of choice to you and yours from me and mine.

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Fans of Little Women often divide along Jo/Amy lines. Jo was independent and smart, but Amy always seemed to get what she wanted and have more fun. Are you in the Jo camp or the Amy camp?


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Jo for sure. Amy always bothered me--lots of airs and she burned Jo's book, for heaven sake.

But I was always a Jo/Laurie 'shipper, anyway.
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Happy birthday, darling [info]dashenka. Love, love and more love. We got you a president. We hope you like him.

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In other news, I have come to a decision. I would like to share it publicly as I have thought about it a great deal and it is the kind of decision that I expect to apply to noone but myself. But it is a decision I feel needs to be articulated, one that should be shared.

It's pretty basic and it's simply this: )

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I am completely overwhelmed right now.

::breathes::

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Good morning.

I was looking over the past few posts and realized that I've been hugely absent (sorry about the adverb, Punk) from this community for a while. Part of it was the allure of Facebook--it's been fun and many of you are there as well. Still, there's something about a written record that posting pictures, sending pokes and karma requests just doesn't quite satisfy.

Ohio has been a strange experience, a place filled with personal dichotomies. I've gained so much even as I lost some very important components of my life. My horizons have broadened as I am more secure as an artist than I have ever been in my life even as my focus has narrowed in dedication to a career in finance. There's much which I love about this place, especially the beauty of the land and the ability to see the stars in my own backyard, yet an equal amount which gives me great concern, re: the business culture, the effects in both economy and culture brought about by Ohio being in a recession since the 1970's. I have found love here both personally and professionally and lost some of it.

But not all.

The last nine months have been a stripping process--losing what I didn't need anymore and ending up in the end with myself. I feel--distilled. I said to my mother the other day, "I think I had a mid-life crisis." It makes sense. I was turning 40 and I went to live the dream, to become the person I believed was my best incarnation again, to recreate a time which is still a shining moment in my life. A woman I have absolutely no respect for whatsoever once told me that I couldn't bring back the way the outdoor drama was. It had changed over the years, didn't run that way anymore. I didn't know it then but not only was she right about the drama, but that statement was true for my whole life. You can't go back again and if you do, it will not be the same. It will be what it is. You have to meet your life day by day in its current incarnation and accept yourself and your reality as it is now, even as you cherish the past and work for a better future.

There have been some hard spots--really tough. The worst was and continues to be there is no use trying to be part of a something that doesn't really want you as a member. This has been perhaps the most powerful lesson of all and if I had to condense the lessons I have learned since leaving Chicago, this would be the core as it has manifested in many different ways. I still have to make my peace daily with this. Most days, I'm good. Still, there is always an underlying sadness, like the phantom pain felt for a limb no longer there.

The good news is today and every day now, I'm doin' all right. I feel cleaner. There is so much good in my life and I see it clearly. I'm a better parent, more connected with my son than ever. I know who my real friends and family are and my connection with them is strong and true. There are new people in my life--people who are at the same stage of life as I am--who have good advice, similar experience, and value my opinion and input as much as I value theirs. I'm a grownup now. It feels right. I'm at peace by myself and with others. I'm more cautious, perhaps a little more closed than I was before. I think that last is the real reason I've been absent from LJ--I've needed to go through this out of the public eye.

The thing is, I love you all dearly and there are many times the desire to post has been great. I'm hoping to be around more--to do more reaching out and less looking in. I'm good. It's tme to come back.

I hope all of you are well. I'm looking forward to getting caught up with all of your lives.

Current Mood:
calm calm
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That was really good. That was really, really good.

Pictures in a bit. WOW. That was something.

Sherrod Brown, Ted Strickland JOHN GLENN---JOHN FRICKIN' GLENN!!!!!!

Then of course, Biden and the man himself.

Wow.

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The difference between the 20s and the 40s--

The last time I went to a political rally during an election year, I went off to see Bill Clilnton with a hand-painted "what a real family values" t-shirt and about five dollars in my pocket. My jaw dropped when I heard U2's Achtung Baby as the warmup music. It nearly unhinged when I stood in a crowd of people and heard someone who wanted to lead our country speak what I cared about. It was revolutionary.

Now, two weeks shy of 43, I've packed ham and cheese sandwiches with fresh tomato from the garden, made potato salad and sliced up some fresh strawberries to snack on while we wait in line to see Obama and Biden tonight. I have also bought two Bakkugan rollers (re: Pook CRACK) and have spent the morning teaching him who Barack Obama and Joe Biden are and what they're doing and why we're going. I have made sure the gameboy is charged, the sunscreen is in my bag and I have batteries for my camera. The car is swept, the Roaring Waters Capri Suns are chilling and we're heading out to wait in line to get in.

The preparation is oh so different from way back then. And honestly, I don't think my jaw will drop this time but if that speech the other night was any indication, tears of joy that someone finally gets it again might be in order. That's how strongly I feel about this.

Wish us luck. Pook's first political rally. Mark the date. The way I look at it, no matter which side of the election you're rooting for, history will be made in November. My son will be able to say, "I was there. I was part of it."

Yeah. Oh yeah.

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And a happy birthday to our darling, darling [info]ayabai. Look at you now! Just wait. There's more wonderful to come.

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I break the surface only briefly with an update which is flavored with worry as my darling kitty, our Janie, our dearest baby girl has CRF and is failing quickly. She is already thinner and weaker than when we went to the vet late last week. I am going to take her to the clinic first thing in the morning for an assessment and for some fluids. She's still eating every day--just not much. Our fat girl is down to 9 lbs and her back end is very unsteady. She has been coming downstairs regularly but the past two days, she's stayed up when I've been home. She moves about but her fur looks rough tonight and it's just breaking my heart.

But of course I am not the only one here whose heart is breaking.

Pook asked me tonight, "Is Janie sick?"

I didin't lie to him. I told him that yes, she was very sick. I then considered and told him that I thought perhaps she wouldn't be with us much longer which of course, started tears flowing. I normally let him cry what he needs to out but in this case, I told him not to cry too much yet as she still is with us and instead, here in the right now, let Janie know we love her. He agreed and hugged and kissed her. They are sleeping, curled up in his almost too small bed together even as I write. It's her favorite place now--in with him, snuggled up in the Spider Man tent.

Another week maybe. Maybe a month. My gut tells me shorter.

Oh Janie. Oh dear baby girl.

Current Mood:
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I offer a resounding Barbarian battle cry of "POLKA" towards the heavens tonight at the news of the passing of Gary Gygax. Thanks, Gary. You brought me friends, memories, good times and lots of laughs. And with the advent of D&D Online, Ilsa's adventures, the friendships over random critical hits continue.

May Torvaald Riker meet you at the gates, a +5 Vorpal Disrupting Great Axe of Smiting ready for your use. R.I.P.

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For years, I have coveted a Blue Dog by George Rodrigue. For years. I have wanted one, I have drooled over them, I have dreamed about one.

Another mystery was that I have wondered what caused me to pick Snowball for the latest member of the family. I am not for adopting puppies from rescues, I always go for older dogs. I also am not a particular affeciando of the Husky breed.

Today, I tied it all together.

Behold--Snowball sits for a picture )

Behold--a really wonderful George Rodrigue.  )

Now just...behold.  )

Yep. That explains some things. Now my choices are find $1600 for a print or some blue dye. Hmmmmm.

::ponders and eyes sleeping dog::

We're home today due to president's day. I'm down sick with Pook's cold but we're having a nice day playing board games, figuring out puzzles and now playing a little Spyro. I took some pictures of the dogs the other day--Max moved too much for a really good shot (drag, I had a beauty) but the white girl reflects so much light--well, that and she's a natural model, sits still and poses when the camera is out--I have more of her this time.

I now present Miss Canine February.  )

In other news, today is a memorable day because Lucas got up, came downstairs and said, "Mom, can I get myself something to eat?" He actually wanted to get it himself. Just now, I handed him some Yogos and instead of asking me to open them, he went and got a pair of scissors and opened them himself.

I have a suspicion I'm going to LOVE six.

Hope all are having a Happy President's day. I have to go and book the bowling alley for his birthday now so invites can be done by Wednesday. So much to do, so much to do.

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Dear Uncaring Corporate Reader: )

I doubt I'll get a response. Just when we get a little ahead. Sucks.

I'm going to go and growl in the corner now. Don't buy a Frigidaire, people. That's all I'm sayin'.
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But I have never worried about that. Most of my friends list knows me in real life, even if our relationship started from the Internet. If we picked each other up over the years on this forum and haven't met yet, we'll get around to it. It's inevitable or at least I believe so.

I have something to say about the LJ exodus and the latest fandom kerfuffle. In fact, I feel a rant coming on.

Me? Surpised? Not so much.  )

Current Mood:
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Finished it at 2:35 this afternoon.

That was-------------------amazing.

I ihae so much to say but right now will content myself with just feeling blessed Rowling put pen to paper and shared that story with us. With this in mind, I started reading them to Pook today. Started with the Philosopher's Stone, Chapter 1 and so much comes back, even with a little bit of reading.

His turn now. Thanks, JK.

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I just reread HBP. I had forgotten pretty much the whole thing since I last read it the day it came out almost two years ago. I swallowed it like a soft serve cone on a very hot day. Now that I'm back up to speed, I want to indulge in theory, LOTS AND LOTS of theory, because we only have three days left until the mystery is revealed and the ride is over.

 

So. Here's what I'm suggesting we do to kill the time and have some fun; to just ride the ride and savor the bittersweet of the moment as it all winds down: make your predictions. Three predictions. What do you think is going to happen in the last book?

 

Now, I'm not interested in the Internet spoiler guy or the jpg pages because those could be real or could be fakes. All guesses are as good as the others at this point because the only one who knows for sure are Rowling and her publishers. What three things do you think will happen? What do you think the plot twist is? And for fun, I'll add a poll: which of our heroes are unlikeliest to survive.  It will all be behind cuts. No intentional spoilers here.

 

Let's have some fun in these last days--talk the theories again, gear ourselves up for the final moments before the book is in our hands and we know for sure--for certain sure--and for ourselves how it all ends. 

 

Bring on your predictions. The one closest to right will get to say, "I told you so." 


Poll #1023181 HPDH: Who gotta go to finish this thing?
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

Which character will certainly die in Deathly Halllows?

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Harry. It's the way it's got to be.
1 (6.7%)

Hermione. She's too smart to live:
2 (13.3%)

Ron.The loyal sidekick always gets it.
5 (33.3%)

Mrs. Weasley. She's Harry's other mother.
0 (0.0%)

Hagrid. He's the sentimental favorite.
5 (33.3%)

Nevillle. It will have been him all along.
2 (13.3%)


 

That's my three.  More on edit as I think of them.  Maybe.  Tell me what you think instead. 





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Look!  Some really cool write ups in response to the crazy Creation Museum. 

It's $20 to get in.  Really.

I am sickly fascinated by this atrocity.  More so because my coworker has shown great enthusiam for attending and not in the "viewing the train wreck" sort of way I want to go although now I am torn because, well, $20 is a movie and popcorn for me and the Pook.   When I mentioned the dinosaurs aren't 4000 years old, she said "They've made a good case for it (creationism.)   I understand they really did their research!" 

For REAL. 

Her pastor was also involved in it somehow.  She's such a nice woman and I wouldn't presume to insult her personal faith.  However, when faith tries to prove itself through impirical research that is far from impirical, I see sort of a blinding red.  I think it's just arrogant--arrogant as all hell and I hate it beyond belief.   And yes, that really is the way I feel.  

Current Mood:
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TWO IN ONE DAY???

This is even CLOSER to me.  

I have to get out of here.  OUT OUT OUT. 

Current Mood:
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